Debate Exposes Doubt

I don't want to leave home,
because it finally,
finally feels like 
home.

I finally feel safe
and happy in this house.
I finally understand
my family
and love them more
than before.

I don't want to leave
next year,
for I've only recently
gotten comfortable here.

What will I do 
far away,
sharing tiny living spaces
with stranger?

My mounting anxiety
is the fault only of college.

I don't want to have
to make my own home
out of a shared room
so soon.

I want the comfort
of having a house,
and having a room within 
that house.
I hate dorm rooms,
they are small
and ugly.

I hate dorm bathrooms,
they are too sterile
and too shared.
No privacy of a locked door
and solitude.

I do not bode well
with such shared quarters,
I do not bode well with
people.

I want to stay home
for a long time.