Sleep the Clock Around

And then I got confused.
You know how sometimes
you catch a glimpse of someone
and then the world
slows down for a moment?
Ugh.
I saw you walk across the library
and thought
that is such a cute shirt on you
then I caught myself
and was so disgusted
with the thought.
So what if it was a nice shirt?
So what if it was on a nice
looking body?
It is a body that houses
a rude and 
selfish person.
I got duped.

And I hate that feeling,
you're like,
but maybe I like you,
maybe I'm over this.

I have to remind myself
that I am not over
the rudeness I had to 
deal with,
I am not over the
attitude with which you
treated me.
You were a flat out jerk.
But a cute one.
And funny sometimes,
smart.
You helped me in a lot of ways.
Until you decided I was really just
in the way, I was over-ambitious.
I remind myself that 
so many things will never happen
because I'm not there.
Have fun with that,
you suck 
for making me confused.

I just want to forget you.
Life is short
but so is your patience
so we may never talk again.

I like someone else
now,
and he is better.
Nicer,
more genuine.

I wish he liked me.