12 Days of Christmas

Could it be?
Am I freeing myself from you?
After three years?

Am I finally done with you?
Was there a final straw?

Yes, 
there was.

I know I don't trust you.
You won't be reading my things
again, I don't think.

Maybe
I am finally 
over this.

Over you.

Maybe you won't make me into
such a mess anymore.

Or maybe I'll go back
and be very confused
and saddened.

But for now,
I feel a little freer,
a little over you,
done with your
rude attitude,
done with you blowing me off,
done with how you've acted this year.

It's you,
it's things involving you.

I want to untangle myself fully.

Maybe I like somebody else.
And maybe he's a lot better for me
to like.
Maybe I don't even like you anymore.
Maybe you can get out of my life.

Maybe this other guy will like me.
Someday?
Maybe?