White Christmas

So of course
out of the blue
I think I have a 
crush on a guy
who is actually my age
and who actually 
might even slightly
like me back?

Woah, life,
hold up,
slow down.

Because that one
guy I like
and have liked for three
years is being such a jerk-idiot,
and makes me anxious and scared
and feel bad,
so life is like

"TAKE THESE NEW FEELS"

and I am like

ohmygod no.

Facebook chat pops up
-ping-
and I see who it's from
and my stomach is like,
doing summersaults 
and I had no idea what was going
on and then,
perhaps I like him?

Maybe?
Is that what a crush feels like?
I don't know
because I haven't experienced anything
like that in a long time.

Maybe this will be good for me?
Or maybe I'll just continue to be very
confused and
consumed.

Maybe he even likes me?
Woah, like that could ever happen.

Whatever.