Slow Graffiti

New Year's Eve Post One

I feel like my new year
started in November.

A lot of things shifted in my life
and I have no regrets.

So this is another chance to begin
and I'm debating what to 
try to change.
Mostly,
things have changed so much this month
that I am not really eager to 
go and make more change.

I have gained new friends
whom I feel 
very comfortable with,
and who I have so much
to talk about.

I have learned about my true
friends,
those I can count on.

I am in the state of moving on
from a three year fixation 
with someone who 
sort of turned out to be an asshole,
and I was sort of waiting for that.

I love him,
but in a way that I wish him the best
but know he's not good for me.
So I'm leaving that behind.
Because I know I deserve better
than being pissed and unhappy 
with him all the time. 

Maybe we will be friends somewhere in the future
but I'm not holding my breath.

I am optimistic about my prospects
with a new crush,
a good guy.
And I'm hoping he will be free
here soon so we can watch movies.

I'm in a completely new realm,
and I don't know what I'm doing
and it's great.
I haven't been this way in a long time.

New beginnings don't always correspond with
the changing of the calendar year,
but I'm ok with that.

I'm working on my resolutions,
I'm reminiscing
about 2012,
and I'm looking ahead with
a lot more vigor
than I thought.

I'm not going to go out on any limbs 
and say 2013 will be the best year
ever of some such shit,
but I'm happy right now,
I think, a little.

I'm confused in many aspects,
but I'm ok.