Scarborough Fair

I have some anchors.


I am trying to find them
and hold onto them everyday.


Thank you for driving over last night
and staying with me for a while.
You are amazing. I couldn't 
exist without you.


Thank you for listening to me.
For trying to understand,
for saying "I worry about you",
"There you are, I looked for you". 
For being you.


And thank you, 
film family,
thank you film.
There is such
deep camaraderie,
in a sense all its own.


I can control some things.
Some things I can't.


There will be something new someday.
There will be more
that is worthwhile and fulfilling.


There must be more.


Somewhere.


And then you said
"Maybe we should talk about 
something else."
And proceeded to walk over
to the board,
and next to Stalin you
wrote "Viva la Revolution"
(in full spanish, oddly).