25.10.12

The Everlasting Itch for Things Remote

Sometimes I get confused about how I feel,
and then I listen to music and realize
that whatever I pick reflects my
mood perfectly
and then I understand. 

So I'm listening to guitar music,
only instrumental
and only a guitar or two,
and it's really lovely
and kind of somber,
and kind of really good sleepy music.

I'm just really tired.

And I feel a little weird
after giving up all of my authority 
roles in D-Town today, because it was 
driving me crazy.
I felt horrible, and I get mean
when put in those situations.

So today I quietly and politely said
I was resigning from my duties.
There was a moment of silence
and a look like "Oh shit, really?"
And then it was ok and it was decided
and explained.

Things felt a little better,
still pretty weird.
But now I think they are ok.

I feel better about this.

But weird overall.

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