It's a multiple blog posts sort of day.
Really, it isn't, there's nothing "blogworthy" going on in my life,
But some sort of big heavy blanket just got figuratively thrown over my head,
And I feel very heavy all of a sudden.
It could be the season.
It's dark.
Cold.
Dead.
Dying.
Grey.
It could be that I have a mild case of Seasonal Affective Disorder.
This makes me sound like a hypochondriac,
Proclaiming I have something I most likely don't.
Regardless, fall and winter, as seasons, make me sad.
Make me feel very hopeless.
The season could have something to do with this feeling.
It could also just be that stupid teenage feeling.
Teen angst comes a-calling.
It's not exactly encouraging that I keep bringing up this stupid little fact of existence.
Teen angst.
Maybe it's the fact that I keep bringing up teen angst that's got me down.
Maybe it's the fact that I just read a short story about a girl kidnapped by kidney thieves.
And the kidney thieves go from hotel to hotel picking up victims and taking their kidneys
And calling this act of kidney stealing "the sex".
Maybe it's that.
I don't know.
I want to just...
Say things.
That sounds stupid.
Let me try again.
I'm very highly inclined to just freely rant about how upsetting people are to me, and I'd also like to spout off everything that crosses my mind involving him, but such a thing cannot happen because, surprisingly, people read this blog. Ergo, I cannot say such things.
And I certainly can't use names.
Specifically a name starting with "R".
The feeling of...
This.
This feeling I'm encountering right now,
Has become very strong,
And I'm going to go.
Before I break into a big flowing rant like I really wish I could.
One thing,
Is it weird that I went out to put a tape in my car, and decided I wanted to listen to it,
So I sat in my car in the dark listening to John Lennon on the verge of tears,
Simply because John Lennon always makes me want to cry?
Is that weird?
Or do people often do this?
Goodbye, take two:
Adieu!
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