If I Fell

We've all been denied things.

We've all gotten in trouble.

But you want to know something crazy?

I feel as though I am not denied enough things,

And really, I've never been punished.

And it sounds odd and sadistic, and just stupid, but

I think I should be denied things and punished.

Sometimes I am a spoiled brat.

And if I could just be put in my place,

I think I'd be better.

It's stupid, isn't it?

I want for the stupidest things.

-Complete subject change/awkward segueway-

Driving school?

Yeah, that's gonna be three solid weeks,

Four days a week

Two hours a day.

Christ almighty, people.

Maybe I have stuff to do,

A life, even?

How much can there possibly be to learn about stupid automobiles?

I can drive just fine, as is.

I understand road signs, speed limits, all the kinds of stops, and what the lines painted on the road mean.

I just can't parallel park. But who cares about that, because nobody likes to do that/does it well.

Awesome. Arghhh.

I had this lovely, eloquent little rant I was going to have about him, but then I sort of forgot.

Just that secretly, he must be a pessimist.

He seems optimistic.

But then he makes these little comments or just looks horribly depressed.

Yesterday he was sitting there all depressed looking, cheeks flushed, furiously typing away at something.

And he made one of those depressing comments.

And I wonder sometimes,

Are you a pessimist?

Do things bother you more than you let on?

Are you ok?

I'd very much like to know.