Train In Vain.

Isn't it odd how people are always saying you can't fall out of love, for if you do then you never truly loved them?

What a lie.

Love is wanting the best for someone.

No matter what.

All the time.

Regardless if you're in the picture or not.

So if you start having malice for that person.

What's to say you always did?

Maybe you really did love them.

But you just couldn't take it.

And you fell out of love.

And it's sad, and it'll make you wonder.

Maybe you'll regret it?

I'm not sure.

I can't say much for that.

As I've never truly loved or fallen from love.

But why stay with someone you're no longer happy with?

People change their minds all the time.

What's to say love is above this change?

It's a level playing field, life is.

Today love isn't exactly sacred.

At least,

To some it isn't.

I'm just saying that yes,

People can stop loving someone.

Notice "Stop"

Because at some point, they did

LOVE

That person.

And they know it.

And the love-recipient knows it too.

But humans aren't perfect.

And nothing is forever.

But what about

Loving someone

Without their notice.

Without their consent?

Can you love without permission?

Does it work like that?

Can you secretly wish all your optimism into that person?

Hope they're feeling perfectly fine and happy and that they're secretly thinking of you as well?

Can you do that?

If not, then I'm doing something wrong.

Really, utterly wrong.

Because I'm constantly wishing the best for him.

Because that's what you do.

Now isn't it?

I think so.

That was stated cautiously.

Not matter-of-factly, or any other snooty type of way.

And sadly, I wonder constantly if he wonders about me.

Again.

A reoccurring theme: I am pathetic.

Or pathetically in love with this guy

Or something.

And it's definitely unrequited.

"Mamihlapinatapai: A look shared by two people with each wishing that the other will initiate something that both desire but which neither one wants to start."

Can I get that sort of look?